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DILEMMEMORIA

by Reali-tGlitch

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1.
Walk Alone 04:10
Though I never meant to walk alone, I forsake the place I once called home. There is no reason I should look for peace, When all the love I had felt has since ceased. I don't remember how long it's been Since I looked to those I could call friend. There is no place that I could truly be -- This sad disgrace that has become of me. And I can't be free As long as I don't believe There is more that I am living for Please save me, from me All of my life I've walked a long a blade, On either edge are places I have stayed. To neither one of them can I return, No matter where I go I will still burn. The ghosts of my mistakes forever haunt, That is all that I could ever want. In mirrors there is a face that I can see -- This sad disgrace that has become of me And I can't be free As long as I don't believe There is more that I am living for Please save me, from me. I know I'm not Alone in the thought; There is more that we could be living for Please stay here, for me
2.
Life has thrown me to the ground. Strife has twisted me around. I refused to stop and drown. Now you think you can take me down? You see what you see, but you believe that you perceive beyond the mask. This cannot be, and you tell me that you can beat this kind of task, But then I know where you will go when you begin to push and ask I will now show you how I've grown to be above all your attacks. There is nothing you can do To break beyond this mask I grew. It's tough with all I have been through. But I know others have their own, too. You see what you see, but you believe that you perceive beyond the mask. This cannot be, and you tell me that you can beat this kind of task, But then I know where you will go when you begin to push and ask I will now show you how I've grown to be above all your attacks. You see what you see, but you believe that you perceive beyond the mask. This cannot be, and you tell me that you can beat this kind of task, But then I know where you will go when you begin to push and ask I will now show you how I've grown to be above all your attacks.
3.
Keep it bottled up, I'm sure you'll be alright It's what you get told at all points in life Looking back I see all the damage done to me In the darker corners of my mind Manic depressive, melodramatic. It's all overwhelming; I need a sabbatical. Radical liminal spaces full of faces that I've never known, living on Everything right, and everything pure I lost my sight looking out for a cure. Am I in heaven, or am I in hell? Is there anyone there for my story to tell? Swear to me that you'll fill this page On and on, simply as you age Swear to me that your memories Will not cease to be Once I'd given up, I turned away from light It hurt deep in my soul, I knew it wasn't right Trying to repair all those moments of despair Put me through one hell of a fight Manic depressive, melodramatic. It's all overwhelming; I need a sabbatical. Radical liminal spaces full of faces that I've never known, living on Everything right, and everything pure I lost my sight looking out for a cure. Am I in heaven, or am I in hell? Is there anyone there for my story to tell? Swear to me that you'll fill this page On and on, simply as you age Swear to me that your memories Will not cease to be Swear to me that you'll fill this page On and on, simply as you age Swear to me that your memories Will not cease to be
4.
Forget 04:10
Sometimes I forget my name, And sometimes I can't numb the pain, But I still get up again and live to fight another day, another way, on into the night. Soaring through the roaring skies, I watch as the world dies And fades away, to nothing at all. It is our time, I can hear the call. Sometimes I forget to say Thanks for all the love you gave But I know I'll always be within your heart, and in my art, I reciprocate. Soaring through the roaring skies, I watch as the world dies And fades away, to nothing at all. It is our time, I can hear the call. Sometimes I forget my name...
5.
Cold 04:19
Ghostly chills upon my face, but I Shiver not within this place. I feel your presence in my soul, And it makes me want to lose control Trying not to fall away As I let you turn night to day Is proving harder more and more Please dim the lights and shut the door Oh so cold, I don't know how To tell where I'm going now. Sensations of what was done Remind me of what I've become. Reasons why I'm still alive With these thoughts that just don't jive All I know is I'll go on This frost will melt with the break of dawn. My mind exists within a haze, As I let you keep me in a daze. Flags go up, but are they red? I'm colorblind when you're in my head Forget-me-nots in a bouquet To show that this is no mere play. What I want is something more As I see you at the door Oh so cold, I don't know how To tell where I'm going now. Sensations of what was done Remind me of what I've become. Reasons why I'm still alive With these thoughts that just don't jive All I know is I'll go on This frost will melt with the break of dawn.
6.
Tell Me 04:57
Tell me why you think you deserve all this pain. Tell me why you feel you deserve death, in vain. You can tell me all about life, I will care. You can call my name and I will be right there. And I'll watch over you And I will shelter you There's no need to feel this fear, Just come and sit with me, my dear. Drifting on a raft within a sea of hate That is something that I would not call your fate. There is so much more to life than nothingness All the things that hurt you once will not be missed And I'll watch over you And I will shelter you There's no need to feel this fear, Just come and sit with me, my dear. And I'll watch over you And I will shelter you There's no need to feel this fear, Just come and sit with me, my dear.
7.
Dilemmemoria 03:25
Some days you want to be remembered, Others you wish to be erased This is life's dilemma upon which all of my thoughts are based. To be alive it feels so simple, but to leave behind no trace Of everything that I have been, though... A fate I'd rather face. Dilemmemoria, This is the story of me. No point ignoring the End of all what is meant to be Dilemmemoria, What is left of me to believe. An absent aria, A melody as I take my leave. All of the voices speaking to me; A chorus of my disgrace. My shame that just feels neverending, Of a life that feels defaced. A gift of all the wrong that I've done, Wrapped in pretty lace Sometimes I really just need someone To reign in my headspace. Dilemmemoria, This is the story of me. No point ignoring the End of all what is meant to be Dilemmemoria, What is left of me to believe. An absent aria, A melody as I take my leave. Feigning oblivion, Avoid the unnecessary Withering warrior Of self-inflicted melancholy Dilemmemoria Nothing left of my memory Synapse hysteria Has taken all that away from me
8.
Glad 05:25
Slow, driving beats, and distant melodies Comprise the noise inside of me. Dissonant voices that won't just let me be Chip away at my own sanity. Gaslight myself into believing I, Am not worth the dirt under the sky. But instead of despair, I opened up my eyes And saw beyond all of these lies. Is it bad that I find solace in these Times I've had to fix broken memories? Maybe sad that I thought I wasn't strong, But I'm glad that in the end I was wrong. Is it bad? Maybe sad, But I'm glad Lost and afraid, I began to descend, A death spiral that could spell my end. Feeling alone, I look for a friend That has a hand that they can lend. Forget my name, and push myself beyond All the times that I wished I was gone. These driving beats and melodies play on But this far from my swan song. Is it bad that I find solace in these Times I've had to fix broken memories? Maybe sad that I thought I wasn't strong, But I'm glad that in the end I was wrong. Is it bad? (that I find solace in these) (Times I've had to fix broken memories) Maybe sad (that I thought I wasn't strong) But I'm glad (that in the end I was wrong) Maybe sad, But I'm glad
9.
I shout at phantoms in my periphery. I see the shadows closing in on me. Am I a victim, or was this all my fault? I watch as my world starts to fall, But in this darkness, you're the light I see. I'm going nowhere, here is where I stay. No chance, I've got to live today. I will stay standing here in spite of all my doubt. I'm going nowhere, I'll not go away. Not when I've got much more to say. I'm done with searching for a fast way out. I can't remember a name to save my life, But faces stay there, just sharp as a knife. We dance in circles, not quite falling down, But in this space there is no sound, A whisper carries promises of better nights I'm going nowhere, here is where I stay. No chance, I've got to live today. I will stay standing here in spite of all my doubt. I'm going nowhere, I'll not go away. Not when I've got much more to say. I'm done with searching for a fast way out.

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released December 7, 2023

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Reali-tGlitch Seattle, Washington

A producer since the age of 12 in 2006, Reali-tGlitch has produced a great number of genres over the years. Now focusing more in goth/industrial/synthpop styles, while still letting loose in the 2 Hour Track Sundays compositions, he continues to make the music he loves.
Recently, he started a new side-project title Echo Ex Machina, focusing on instrumental cyberpunk-oriented music.
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